BEING ME, BEING REAL

CARE PEOPLE CLAIM IS THE INGREDIENT THAT KEEPS TRUE FRIENDHIP GOING. SURE, I AGREE. BUT WHAT I DISAGREE WITH IS HAVING TO CARE FOR OTHERS AT THE EXPENSE OF ONESSELF. NOW, DONT TELL ME THAT AM SELFISH COS EVERYONE IS. AT LEAST THAT I KNOW, I ASSUME THAT WHEN WE SHOW CARE TO OTHERS, IT SHOULD BE RECIPROCAL. YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN.... MAY BE IT'S COS OF MY PARENTAL ANTECEDENTS AND MY CONSTANT LONGING FOR CARE AND ATTENTION, I FEEL MOST PEOPLE ASK FOR TOO MUCH OF OTHERS THAN THEY CAN AND ARE WILLING TO GIVE THEMSELVES.

I LOVE TO CARE FOR PEOPLE, BUT ONLY THOSE WHO ARE WILLING TO CARE FOR OTHERS LIKE THEM. HOW SHOULD I CARE ABOUT A MAN WHO SHOWS HIS WEAKNESS AGAINST MY STRENGHT ONLY TO INCAPACITATE ME WITH IT? WHY SHOULD I SHOW AFFECTION TO A LADY WHO PROVES TO BE LOYAL AND LOVING AND CARIN, AND... (YOU ALL KNOW WHAT THEY SAY NOW, DONT YOU?), YET COMING BACK TO BITE ME FROM BEHIND.

IT IS NOT WORTH IT. BUT I TRY TO SEE THE NEED TO CARE FOR CLIENTS, BUSINESS ASSOCIATES AND COLLEAGUES AT WORK. AT LEAST, THERE IS MORE TO GAIN FROM THERE. I WILL BE ADDING TO THE ECONOMIC GROWTH OF THE COUNTRY WHILE MAINTAIN FORMAL AND OTHERWISE RELATIONSHIP WITH BUSINESS PARTNERS. MORE SO, I STAND TO GAIN A LOT OF RESPECT AND ADORATION FROM THE MONEY-SPINING CIRCLE.

YEP, THAT IS THE GIMMICK! SHOW CARE TO ONLY THOSE WHO CARE.

CARE IS TOO PRECIOUS TO BE WASTED. GO SHOW SOME CARE......

CARING.... IN MY DUDU WAY.

24 HOURS MAKE ONE DAY! AHAH. JUST 24. WHAT WAS KIEFER SULDERLAND THINKING OF WHEN HE DID THE WORLD ACCLAIMED BEST MOVIE ON TERRORISM AND POLITICAL ADMINISTRATION (24)? TO SOME ADDICTS LIKE MYSELF, I WISH A DAY IS MADE OF 36 HOURS OR EVEN MORE. AND BY THE WAY, WHY CANT THAT BE CHANGED? AFTERALL CHANGE IS THE ONLY CONSTANT THING AS THEY ALWAYS SAY. WHY HAS THE DAY NOT CHANGED FROM 24 HOURS TO 36HRS OR 48 HOURS? WHY IS GOD CLAIMINIG THAT MONOPOLY OF TIME?

IT THUS MEANS THAT WHATEVER A MAN PLANS TO DO IN A DAY MUST BE DONE WITHIN THE SPATE OF 24 HOURS OR SUCH IDEAS SHOULD BE CONSIDERED NOT ACHEIEVED. TOO BAD. THAT MEANS A DAY IN MY LIFE WILL NOT BE LONGER OR SHORTER THAN 24 HOURS.....

EVEN AS I SLOGGISLY RISE FROM MY EXTRA LARGE BED AT 6AM, TURN TO THE OTHER SIDE, HALF BODY ON BED, HALF ON THE RUG FROM THE KNEEL TO SAY A BRIEF PRAYER(BABA GOD PLS). SORRY I HARDLY STAY FOR MORE THAN 5 MINUTES. GOD FORGIVES NOW, SEBI? PUTS ON MY SOUND SYSTEM TO PUT MYSELF IN THE MOOD. AT 7:15AM, GO TO COOL FM FOR PRESS REPORT. CLEAN UP MY ROOM TILL 7:30. I USE THE BATH AND THE GENTS TO GET READY FOR 8AM. YEEEPAAA, IT'S 8 O'CLOCK? I GOTTA GUN. HOP INTO THE OFFICE AT PAST 9AM.

DEJI, THERE IS WORK FOR YOU OOOOO, DO THIS. GET THAT. CAN YOU HELP ME BUY THIS? YOU COULD HAVE DONE BETTER THAN THAT. MAYBE WE (YOU) SHOULD DO IT THIS WAY? OOOOH, I TOLD YOU TO WRITE THAT MEMO, DONT TELL ME YOU FORGET OOOOO. YOU WILL GET A QUERY IF THAT HAPPENS AGAIN..... THAT'S HOW THE DAY GOES..... TILL GOD KNOWS WHEN.

AND WHEN DAYJI GETS HOME, STAGGERING LIKE A STUPID DRUNK, WHO HAS JUST BEEN PAID 6 MONTHS SALARY IN BULK AND VISITED THE PARAGA JOINT, HE CRASHES ON TO THE BED. UNDRESS. CLOSES HIS EYES. RECALLS THE DAYS ACTIVITIES. SHAKES HIS HEAD..... WHAT A DAY.

WHEN HE LOOKS AT THE GIGANTIC WALL CLOCK, IT'S ONLY FEW MINUTES TO MID-NIGHT. WHATTTT!!!

SLOTS IN THE NEXT SEASON OF 24, CROSSED HIS LEGS AS HE TAKES POSITION ON THE BED TO SIP A BOTTLE OF CHILLED WATER AND SOME OLD CAKE FROM THE SMALL BEDSYDE FRIDGE.

OHHHH!!! TIME TO GO TO WORK OOOOOO. ITS ALREADY A DAY. WHAT A 24-HOUR!

.... LIKE MY BOOKS.

VERY FUNNY. HUH? YES. IT IS. THAT IS LIFE, MY GRANDMA SAYS. IN THE LAST FEW DAYS, I HAVE MET FEW PEOPLE WHO THINK OUT OF THIS WORLD, AND I MUST CONFESS THAT I HAVE BEEN INFECTED WITH THE VIRUS TOO.... I HAVE ALWAYS THOUGHT THAT FAILURE IS A DISEASE, AND THAT WHOEVER FAILS IS BOUND TO KEEP FAILING ALL THROUGH HIS LIFE. BUT RECENTLY, I FOUND OUT OTHERWISE. FAILURE TEACHES US HOW BETTER TO SUCCEED.

NOT THAT I PREACH THE WORD, BUT I THINK MY FEAR OF FAILURE HAS GREATLY HINDERED MY SECCESS. HONESTLY IT HAS. DR. REUBEN ABATI SAID LAST THURSDAY THAT ONE MUST LEARN TO THINK OUTSIDE THE BOX TO APPRECIATE THE FACT THAT ALL ARE NOT THE SAME AND THAT A EXISTS TO COMPLEMENT B. FAILURE OF A TO ASSIST B WILL ALSO HINDER ITS OWN GROWTH. MAYBE HE'S RIGHT AFTERALL.

PERSONALLY, I HAVE AN EYE FOR ACHIEVEMENT AND SUCCESS. EVERYONE KNOWS THAT THESE DUO HAVE A LOT OF FREINDS AND FAMILIES. I HAVE A COUPLE OF THEM AS WELL BUT I HAD TO DISSECT THEM TO KNOW WHO THEY REALLY WERE. MY FRIENDS OR FOES?

YOU KNOW WHAT I FOUND OUT?  THAT HUMAN BEINGS ARE SELFISH. BUT JUST THEN I RECALL, ARISTOTLE'S WORD, THAT ALL ARE BORN SELFISH, EXCEPT THOSE WHO SEE OTHERS BEFORE THEMSELVES. I AM CONSOLED THEN. BUT HOW ABOUT MY CLOSEST PALS, THAT I SHARED DRINK AND GARRI WITH IN SCHOOL, THAT I TOLLED DAY AND NIGHT TO BE THERE FOR, THAT I PERSPIRATED FOR, THAT I BEAT MY CHEST FOR, THAT I VOUCHED FOR? THEY ARE JUST IN ANOTHER PAGE OF THE BOOK.... YES, THE BOOK.

THE WORLD IS LIKE A BOOK. AND FOR THOSE WHO DONT TRAVEL IT, THEY ALSO STAY ON A PAGE.... THAT'S HOW I LEARNED NOT TO RELY ON FRIENDS BUT ONLY CARE FOR THEM.... LIKE MY BOOKS.

Life can be quite a drama! It is such a unique chance to make marks for each creature on earth, and whatever each does in his tyme is only a function of who and who he relates with as no one survives in isolation. The unity of place, time and action.

But for some funny reasons, the drama could be comedic eliciting smiles and in the extreme provoking mouth-opening laughters. UNfortunately, not all interesting dramatic lives happen this way as some become tragic and sorrowful. Just while it has been seen that living must be a mixture of both to be a whole, it must be said that pple prefer the former to the latter.

As for me, its been quite a dramatic living. I have had a taste of both even the one in the middle. But lately, i was confined to think live has not only become tragic, it has somehow worn the gown of deceit and failure.

Maybe because i have always loved success very passionately, i have always dreaded failure. I have always loved new and tougher challenges. I have always come out atop. But wat happens when and where there are no new challenges? How do you measure your success? How do you determine new idea from old idea without recycling? How do you proof to the old friends that you ARE STILL IN CONTROL?

How do you live a dramatic live without a drama? I need a drama